:: A man and his blog.... ::

:: 5.10.2008 ::

I know,its been forever. I'm suh a slacker. Anyways, so here is what woke me up. In this dream, was with my ex-gf and we were together, having a blast. We were running all over with her friends and having a lot of fun. Soon I grew tired of being the 5th wheel and deided to stay at her house while she went out. Before long I hadn't seen her in days, and it was painfully lear how little I meant to her. I stayed the duration of my planed trip just to spite her, so she'd feel bad or something, but it didn't work that way. End of dream. Saddest part is that is kinda how/why our relationship dissolved,because her life is too busy for me right now. Poor me was used to when I was all she had and we talked all day,nearly everyday. Life goes on I guess.

On other notes, I'm making "friends" I guess. Spent all last night at a new friend's because it was his birthday. There were an ish ton of people there,many that I didn't know. After a while and a few drinks some wrestling matches ensued and I took out the "best competitor" in about 45se. Several hours later Matt wanted to arm wrestle, so I obliged. I got my ass handed to me right handed, but he couldn't hang lefty. It was funny and passed time.

So my status on facebook says im tired of dreaming about her. Its true, she is always on my mind,and I still love her and wish we could be together. It almost makes me sick, because I know the feeling is not mutual. Love is a strange and crazy thing. At the end of the day, I spent a few months dating and trying to see an amazngly hot woman as often as I could. We had some great times, and not just the mind boggling PS (porn sex). Like my friend Matt says "nothing wrong being the fill in guy, or the every now and then. You get all the good and none of the bad". Well bro, I get the bad because I fell for her. If only she'd have fallen for me. . .
:: Jeremy 9:46:00 AM [+] ::
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