:: A man and his blog.... ::

:: 11.23.2007 ::

I remembered another one of my dreams that didn't make it on here... funny how this is more of a dream diary than anything else. But in this dream the startling fact is that it was of a sexual nature. Of course it was me, and someone near/dear to me in real life... doing some steamy, passionate, "kinky monkey sex" j/p. That's all the details I care to share, but once again... it was a good dream ;) I've already talked about it with the other party, and she knows how "random" it is for me. Anywho... later peeps!
:: Jeremy 1:36:00 PM [+] ::
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So another day, nothing terribly exciting. Thanksgiving has come and passed, and believe it or not, I honestly believe that it was my first one spent totally alone. It wasn't bad. I was invited to eat at 3 different people's dinners, but declined all of them. I usually don't have Thanksgiving on the right day anyways, so I'll get mine in a few weeks when I'm back home.

Some of my friends are going through some "hard/difficult" times right now, and I hope it all works out for them. It's never easy, but I hope for the best, and regardless... I'm always a phone call or a text away.

So my dream, which ironically, I was awakened from by the other "leading role"... kinda quirky. Well, for some reason I was in a dorm type environment. It was typically 4 guys per room and I was looking for a place to settle in. I tried a few rooms and just didn't think I'd fit in with the other guys. After a little while of searching I consulted one of my friends for a little help in the choice. Her and I were talking it up and I decided on a room with another "quiet" guy, and additional vacancies because at least I'd have a little peace for a while. I moved in, box by box, what little stuff I had in this dream. The dormroom was more of a bachelor pad than an actual room... probably some rediciulous 1100sqft studio apartment than an actual dormroom closet sized room. Once I was settled my friend said she was coming over. Her and I were hanging out talking about stuff (the actual things she has going on right now) and just chilling. After spending most of the afternoon together we decided to grab some food and catch a movie or something. Being that it was late afterwards she decided to crash with me back in the "dorm". We got back and out of nowhere she was like... "Kiss me like you're never going to be able to again." I was like... what? She repeated. I asked her what she meant, as if she means I'm never going to see her again (dying?) or if she just wants my best effort or what. She's like, just do it. So we kiss, a super passionate, long kiss where I hold her close with one arm and hold her head/neck with my other hand. Afterwards, she scoots away from me on the couch. I'm like, guess it wasn't that good afterall was it? She then explains that in her current situation she wants to make the right choice, and somehow kissing her factors in. Of course I'm just confused and then... in reality, my phone did it's silly little new text message chime and I woke up to her saying what she's dealing with is harder than she thought it'd be... talk about crazy. I just find it strange that I was dreaming about talking to her and then she is talking to me. Needless to say I hope everything she's dealing with works out for the best, isn't going to be deemed a "bad" time, and somehow she can find the silver lining and leave smiling. I just wish I could be there for her more than I really am, I'm sure she's very confused and if nothing else I'd listen and be confused too. She knows I've never really understood certain aspects of things.

Outside of the random freaky occurences, and dreaming my crazy dreams I guess I'm ok. Sure I'm sad, and I miss talking to my best friend, but I've got the easy end of it. She's probably going through a whirlwind of emotions and really isn't in the place that she can lean on me for if nothing else, an ear to listen to her.

Umm also random, it got kinda cold last night, like 33deg. I wasn't worried about it, it's been cold a few nights in the past, but I turned on my heat because I didn't want it to get too cold. Previously I've had it off, not on heat/air for the last month or so and the temps have been pretty normal inside. Well I got home this morning and it was 58deg inside. Turns out my heater doesn't work right now, but the fan/blower just circulates the air inside the apartment... this makes it cooler and cooler as the night wears on. Anywho, the office is closed today, and it's no giant hurry. It's almost 60 outside so my place is a little warmer and it's not going to get super cold (only 38deg) tonight... plus... I like the cold when I'm trying to sleep, makes me more comfy. Needless to say, tomorrow when the office is open I'll drop by and talk to her about it. No giant rush, it's supposed to be mid-70's in a few days... but I definately want it fixed before it gets too chilly outside.

Well that's the latest and greatest on my life. All is well... and to that friend I miss... I'm doing ok, no withdrawls yet ;) but I can't wait to hear your voice! I'm also sorry that I "talked" about you in this post, but really... I think I've got 2 readers and anyone else who may stumble upon it has no idea, not to mention, I dreamt about ya, and I always post my dreams. Hope everyone who reads this had a great Thanksgiving, and I'll catch you all later!
:: Jeremy 12:49:00 PM [+] ::
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So... it's my best friend's birthday today. I'm so happy yet sad. I wish I could be around to celebrate with her, but I'm not. I really hope she has an amazing day, like traffic moves out of her way, birds chirping, it's not cold and windy out, etc. Her birthday wishes extend into my blog, because that's how I roll ;). Anywho I just rolled outta bed a while ago, and I've got another dream to post...

So I was at work, patroling around and I was just minding my business. I decided to turn around on a narrow stretch of road and knew that the shoulders of the road were loose sand, so I had to be careful. In all my cautiousness I still manages to drop the rear wheels off into the sand. Alas, it wasn't "normal" sand, it was quicksand or something and before I knew it the whole truck was away from the roadway and floating in this loose sand. It was only up to the doorways, but I definately wasn't going anywhere. So I got out and pushed, in the process dropping my cell phone. I pushed the truck out of the mess with relative ease, but somehow ran over my phone thus crushing it beyone belief. Well I decided to head to safer ground and just be super sad because I lost touch with reality (my friends/phone). Along the way I was looking at my phone to survey the damage, and although it was utterly crushed, both screens destroyed, it still sort of functioned. Then for no apparent reason, I wiggled a piece of it apart as it was seemingly held together by some strange gel and for some reason I ate it. Then I kept eating it, and before long I was left with only the hinge part of the phone. It was good too, that is what was crazy. So now, left with hardly a phone at all, I went to AT&T to get a new one. That's when I realized that I had lost my SIM and all the numbers for those closest to me. That's pretty much it, I woke up, looked at my phone, sighed and got out of bed.

I'm seriously considering trading in my beloved Mumu for something more economical. Actually seriously considering a Toyota Prius. Yes, it's the extreme opposite and total opposite of "performance" but quite frankly... I'll have a lower car note and much lower "need" for gasoline. With the current global situation and ever diminishing supply of fossil fuels I figure it's time for me to bid farewell to the gas chugging, fire breathing go fast yay stuff :( My real true number 1 reason for considering the change is so I can assume the "rockstar" live I'm more accostomed to. Being able to do whatever I want whenever I want, if I want to drive 1000mi to visit a friend, or go home, only to drive 1000mi back a few days later I'll be able to. I won't have to "plan" trips, or budget anything. If I want to go out for dinner, or a lunch with some friends I won't have to worry about being able to put $60 in gas into anything. Not that I'm financially strapped, or pinching pennies but come on, lets be practical... 20gal of gas nearing $4/gal or 10gal @ $3.50... sure the prices are stretched a little, but it's not far off. It really doesn't bother me, but dangit... on a 2000mi trip it's easily $100 less the more economical way. I guess I'm getting old or something. I've gone "fast", I've had my tire shredding fun, now I think it's time for me to enjoy the fruits of a different world. Of course you know I won't get a "base" model anything. I love options, and the way I see it, a fully loaded (or nearly) economy car that is comfy isn't bad compared to a great looking, comfy, practically base luxury sedan. Sure I'll be going from a $40K car to a $20K car, but well... I'm not as balla balla as I once thought ;) Anywho, tis all for now... that's the latest and greatest on my life and times.
:: Jeremy 9:40:00 AM [+] ::
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Well it's been awhile, alas I was out of town. I took a lil vacation from "life" for a while. I had an amazing time. Words really can't describe, and it just gets better and better. I gotta go back to work tonight, and I've never been less motivated to go than I am now. It was pure torture to drive 13+hrs home and leave all the happy things behind. Things are good, I'm good... it doesn't get better. I dunno... I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. Now I'm just going to let things be and see where things go, I don't want to "force" or push for anything to happen, I'm perfectly fine with things the way they are right now, it can only hope it gets better too.
:: Jeremy 9:45:00 AM [+] ::
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Well... things have been pretty crazy lately, but it's life. The little crazy things break it up and make it interesting to say the least. All is well with me, some things are going really good, some not so good at all, but it's pretty level/even if ya ask me. I'm really considering trading Mumu in on an '08 Mustang GT with the Ford Racing S/C on it... 500bhp, 11.8 in the 1/4 for ummm <10k less than Mumu and that's not even considering the interest rates. Anywho, that's about it. Some things are good, others great and some not good at all... but all in all... I wouldn't change a thing.
:: Jeremy 3:08:00 PM [+] ::
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