:: A man and his blog.... ::

:: 10.31.2007 ::

Well it's been crazy I guess, the usual but with a lot of twists lately. Made a new "friend" but he seems to be a lot, almost too much. Worst thing is he lives downstairs, so I see him ALL the time. I mean it's ok, I'm in his boat, not a lot of friends here because I'm not from here, but I just don't get that "good" vibe from him. He's big into cars so that's cool... at least someone understands or something. Outside of that, things have been ho-hum. I'm back to work for a few days, and I might see one of my friends I haven't seen in a while this weekend, who knows. I do know one of my friends called me crushed last night and had me sorta worried, I just can't handle crying. It's my weakness, it breaks me down. Anywho, I hope everything turned out ok for her, and even if it didn't immediately, things will be ok in the long run. What else, umm... Happy Halloween. I'll be coming home and going to bed, I had another night without any sleep. I think I got about 2hrs, as I was tossing and turning well past 2am. Grr.... got annoyed with my g/f again because she left here saying she was going home. A few hours later, I called her to talk since I couldn't sleep and she was out with her friends. Doesn't really bother me, aside from her saying she was going home. I don't need to know where she is, or what she's up to... but don't tell me one thing and do something else. It upset me, but it passed rather quickly. I don't have time to be mad and quite frankly, what is there to be upset about? I just told her to have fun and that I'd talk to her whenever. She hates when I do that, but well... whenever it will be as we're both back to our work weeks and all I do is sleep, eat, work, sleep when I'm on days. Anywho, gotta run. Hopefully I can talk to some friends today, but we're all busy with those jobs. TTFN.
:: Jeremy 4:41:00 AM [+] ::
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So what's new... I'm literally in the middle of my time off, I'll be going back in tomorrow night for a little OT hopefully, and I'm just chilling as of now. It's been rainy so the outdoor activities are kinda on hold, but it's ok. Umm... my best friend and I are talking again, which is great IMO. We've been catching up on things, and it's pretty normal, I'm glad she's getting settled in and into some sort of routine and that things are ok. Kinda sorta helped a friend work on his go-cart last night but he was welding up an exhaust for it, and there isn't much help you can offer when someone is welding, hmm... had a few wild dreams last night, but this is the only one I remember...

I was at a mall shopping, and I parked in some giant parking garage, taking obvious care to remember where I parked due to the sheer size of the lot. There wasn't anything too exciting in the mall, I bought a few things but I really wasn't after a lot of stuff anyways. So I'm walking back to my car to leave and I find it, get in and as I'm about to start the car someone raps on my window. It's a guy with mall security. I'm like WTF, and I notice some remnants of adhesive and part of the SRT8 badge from my car on my windshield. I get out and he's like, sir... we were hoping to catch you, while you were in the mall your car was vandalized. I'm like... well I noticed the badge being pulled off and some adhesive on my windshield but it's not terribly bad. He's like... you didn't notice the roof, or the scratches? Just then some little 4-wheeled robotic "dog" of sorts rolled up and stood up against the side of my car. Im like.. Woah, what is that? The guard is like, oh that's "Rover" one of our robot patrols for the parking lot. I'm like... umm ok, that's pretty high-tech for a mall. So I inspect the damages, and my roof is caved in like a sumo wrestler thought it was a trampoline, and someone keyed the hell out of the sides of the car to bare metal. I'm like, damn... they worked me over pretty good, you guys got any leads? Truns out Rover caught it all on tape and they already had the criminals detained, all they needed from me was a simple statement and my intent to press charges. Of course the "rage" in me wanted to press charges, but after reviewing the tape I found that the young teenagers were not hardened criminals, just doing something random for "fun". I pressed charges and appealed to have them do a lot of community service vice time in juvenille detention centers, taking the positive spin on corrective punishment. Dealt with the insurance company and they wound up totalling the car out. In the new car market again, I sprung for a new EVO X GSR, back to my 4cyl-turbo "roots". That's the end of the dream for the most part... the second one where Mumu gets totalled, :(
:: Jeremy 12:03:00 PM [+] ::
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Work has been kinda hectic lately, of course geting little to no sleep and hardly eating doesn't help matters. The next 2 days I won't even have cell phone service, which theoretically is like cutting off my arms or something. Anywho... I gotta eat faster and get ready for work... just wanted to update the world on my life... or something like that.
:: Jeremy 4:40:00 AM [+] ::
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Things haven't been so good, I'm losing sleep for no reason and I'm not really to be considered happy. Anywho, when I do sleep, I have my "crazy" dreams. I run from things in my sleep. It's wild. They say it's because I'm "running" from something in my life. I dunno... next time I actually sleep and have the dream I'm just gonna stop and let whatever is chasing me catch me, at least that is the plan. Last time, it was a giant anaconda. No idea why I dream of an elusive "super" snake, but at least it's a "man-eater", and I'm not running from a little garter snake or anything. Well... that's about it... off to work again, yay me I guess.
:: Jeremy 4:42:00 AM [+] ::
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What's new with me, not a whole lot. Been working lately. Even going to work some overtime this week. Finally got my part for Mumu. The Diablosport Predator handheld tuner finally released. I got it last night I threw the optimal program on then drove a bit, I wasn't that impressed, then I went in and changed a few settings this morning, and reset the TCM adaptive learning file and BAM-O, night and day... lays rubber in 1st and gets squirrely on the 1-2, chirping 2nd everytime... just like it should have from the factory. It's nice to finally "feel" the advertised 425bhp/420btq. It's not OMG amazing, but it pulls harder and definately shifts umm firmer ;) So I'm happy, but I'm probably "done" with Mumu for a while... it's gonna be a bit. Just gotta get her to the track to get new times to see if she's really any quicker.

Ummm... what else... I dunno, been chilling as much as I can. Most of my day is spent missing someone, I think about her a lot. Whatever, who knows what is in store for anyone in the future, I'm just here now... laters!
:: Jeremy 11:35:00 AM [+] ::
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Been awhile once again, just because I've been away and busy. No big, I'm still committed to posting here more often, and I truely intend to be doing more than just saying it. My best friend still isn't talking to me. Not sure what to say about that. :( but moving on.

Went to a reunion with the family. It's just my dad's side, from Grandma down, so I should've known most everyone there. Got to see the cousin's I haven't seen since we were all kids (8 y/o or so?). They're all grown up, with families of their own. Strangest thing is, nobody cared about filling in the blanks, nobody cared that it had been so long. Sure ya get the "Oh it's been a too long" hugs, but really... Anywho, my little cousins are teenagers now. It's kinda wierd, since I can remember me being a young teen and them being babies. Makes me feel like I'm starting to get old or something. It was a good weekend, but it definately wasn't all it appeared to be. My immediate family (mum + dad down) seemed to be the only ones concerned with cleaning up, and trying to keep some orgainization to the chaos. Even I chipped in and helped with dishes and trash when I could since it seemed nobody else was going to. Anywho... moving on.

Got home the other day and bought Halo 3 like I had planned. Invited a few friends over, and managed to beat the game in ~7hrs. Almost not worth it if ya think about it, but the rest of the game is fun (multiplayer). It was a let down, being that the game had such anticipation and got delayed and yet, it wasn't some epic saga that you had to play for days. Aside from that nothing. That's about it latley. On the borderline of losing sleep over something, but I guess it's better than dreams where I'm running or dying. I feel like I have a void in my life, and there is nothing I can do about it. As much as I love sleep, sometimes my dreams make me not want to. Well... off to work, I'll post more later or something.
:: Jeremy 4:38:00 AM [+] ::
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