:: A man and his blog.... ::

:: 6.04.2008 ::

Haven't really blogged in forever, as usual.  Well April 12th my world fell apart.  The relationship I was in came crashing down.  I thought everytrhing was great, but apparently it wasn't.  She dumped me, and it's been a long road to get here (where I am now) and I'm still miserable.  We're not even friends now, and we don't even talk at all.  She seems happy with this, and seems to have moved on effortlessly.Ouch.  Guess it wasn't meant to be, and I hope she is happy. Outside of that, I've been ok.  Surrounded myself with what few friends I have.  I have nobody to talk to, nobody to help me pick up the pieces.  Shrugs.  It'll be a long long time before I let anyone in, or say I love anyone again.  The scars, and the hurt will change me forever.  Even if she got over whatever she's going through and realized she made a mistake (doubtful), I don't think I could take her back.
:: Jeremy 1:04:00 PM [+] ::
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I know,its been forever. I'm suh a slacker. Anyways, so here is what woke me up. In this dream, was with my ex-gf and we were together, having a blast. We were running all over with her friends and having a lot of fun. Soon I grew tired of being the 5th wheel and deided to stay at her house while she went out. Before long I hadn't seen her in days, and it was painfully lear how little I meant to her. I stayed the duration of my planed trip just to spite her, so she'd feel bad or something, but it didn't work that way. End of dream. Saddest part is that is kinda how/why our relationship dissolved,because her life is too busy for me right now. Poor me was used to when I was all she had and we talked all day,nearly everyday. Life goes on I guess.

On other notes, I'm making "friends" I guess. Spent all last night at a new friend's because it was his birthday. There were an ish ton of people there,many that I didn't know. After a while and a few drinks some wrestling matches ensued and I took out the "best competitor" in about 45se. Several hours later Matt wanted to arm wrestle, so I obliged. I got my ass handed to me right handed, but he couldn't hang lefty. It was funny and passed time.

So my status on facebook says im tired of dreaming about her. Its true, she is always on my mind,and I still love her and wish we could be together. It almost makes me sick, because I know the feeling is not mutual. Love is a strange and crazy thing. At the end of the day, I spent a few months dating and trying to see an amazngly hot woman as often as I could. We had some great times, and not just the mind boggling PS (porn sex). Like my friend Matt says "nothing wrong being the fill in guy, or the every now and then. You get all the good and none of the bad". Well bro, I get the bad because I fell for her. If only she'd have fallen for me. . .
:: Jeremy 9:46:00 AM [+] ::
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Well it's been a while, and I'm finally sitting down at my pc without much to do. I'm less than happy, quite sad really. Things were going great for me. I found love and it was mutual, things were terrific. I messed it up. I said some hurtful things. I cant take things back, and I am sorry for it all. I just want to mend the wounds and get back to what it used to be. I'm torn apart on the inside, as is she, but our broken hearts don't need to bleed. I'm sorry I suck at life, sorry I wanted it all. I'm certain we'll work through it but not sure what we'll be. I dont want to change a thing, I just need to find a way to deal with my problems. I know you hate me posting here about you at all, but it's my place to vent. Nobody reads this anymore, nobody cares what I say here. I'm not looking for pity, just saying it's not Postsecret or anything, so I've got few if any readers. I cried, sobbed and balled my ees out like never before last night. I couldn't breathe. I've never felt like that before. It hurt more than ever, more than anything has before... and all I want is to right the wrongs, move on hopefully she'll still want me around to get past this hiccup.
:: Jeremy 9:21:00 AM [+] ::
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I remembered another one of my dreams that didn't make it on here... funny how this is more of a dream diary than anything else. But in this dream the startling fact is that it was of a sexual nature. Of course it was me, and someone near/dear to me in real life... doing some steamy, passionate, "kinky monkey sex" j/p. That's all the details I care to share, but once again... it was a good dream ;) I've already talked about it with the other party, and she knows how "random" it is for me. Anywho... later peeps!
:: Jeremy 1:36:00 PM [+] ::
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So another day, nothing terribly exciting. Thanksgiving has come and passed, and believe it or not, I honestly believe that it was my first one spent totally alone. It wasn't bad. I was invited to eat at 3 different people's dinners, but declined all of them. I usually don't have Thanksgiving on the right day anyways, so I'll get mine in a few weeks when I'm back home.

Some of my friends are going through some "hard/difficult" times right now, and I hope it all works out for them. It's never easy, but I hope for the best, and regardless... I'm always a phone call or a text away.

So my dream, which ironically, I was awakened from by the other "leading role"... kinda quirky. Well, for some reason I was in a dorm type environment. It was typically 4 guys per room and I was looking for a place to settle in. I tried a few rooms and just didn't think I'd fit in with the other guys. After a little while of searching I consulted one of my friends for a little help in the choice. Her and I were talking it up and I decided on a room with another "quiet" guy, and additional vacancies because at least I'd have a little peace for a while. I moved in, box by box, what little stuff I had in this dream. The dormroom was more of a bachelor pad than an actual room... probably some rediciulous 1100sqft studio apartment than an actual dormroom closet sized room. Once I was settled my friend said she was coming over. Her and I were hanging out talking about stuff (the actual things she has going on right now) and just chilling. After spending most of the afternoon together we decided to grab some food and catch a movie or something. Being that it was late afterwards she decided to crash with me back in the "dorm". We got back and out of nowhere she was like... "Kiss me like you're never going to be able to again." I was like... what? She repeated. I asked her what she meant, as if she means I'm never going to see her again (dying?) or if she just wants my best effort or what. She's like, just do it. So we kiss, a super passionate, long kiss where I hold her close with one arm and hold her head/neck with my other hand. Afterwards, she scoots away from me on the couch. I'm like, guess it wasn't that good afterall was it? She then explains that in her current situation she wants to make the right choice, and somehow kissing her factors in. Of course I'm just confused and then... in reality, my phone did it's silly little new text message chime and I woke up to her saying what she's dealing with is harder than she thought it'd be... talk about crazy. I just find it strange that I was dreaming about talking to her and then she is talking to me. Needless to say I hope everything she's dealing with works out for the best, isn't going to be deemed a "bad" time, and somehow she can find the silver lining and leave smiling. I just wish I could be there for her more than I really am, I'm sure she's very confused and if nothing else I'd listen and be confused too. She knows I've never really understood certain aspects of things.

Outside of the random freaky occurences, and dreaming my crazy dreams I guess I'm ok. Sure I'm sad, and I miss talking to my best friend, but I've got the easy end of it. She's probably going through a whirlwind of emotions and really isn't in the place that she can lean on me for if nothing else, an ear to listen to her.

Umm also random, it got kinda cold last night, like 33deg. I wasn't worried about it, it's been cold a few nights in the past, but I turned on my heat because I didn't want it to get too cold. Previously I've had it off, not on heat/air for the last month or so and the temps have been pretty normal inside. Well I got home this morning and it was 58deg inside. Turns out my heater doesn't work right now, but the fan/blower just circulates the air inside the apartment... this makes it cooler and cooler as the night wears on. Anywho, the office is closed today, and it's no giant hurry. It's almost 60 outside so my place is a little warmer and it's not going to get super cold (only 38deg) tonight... plus... I like the cold when I'm trying to sleep, makes me more comfy. Needless to say, tomorrow when the office is open I'll drop by and talk to her about it. No giant rush, it's supposed to be mid-70's in a few days... but I definately want it fixed before it gets too chilly outside.

Well that's the latest and greatest on my life. All is well... and to that friend I miss... I'm doing ok, no withdrawls yet ;) but I can't wait to hear your voice! I'm also sorry that I "talked" about you in this post, but really... I think I've got 2 readers and anyone else who may stumble upon it has no idea, not to mention, I dreamt about ya, and I always post my dreams. Hope everyone who reads this had a great Thanksgiving, and I'll catch you all later!
:: Jeremy 12:49:00 PM [+] ::
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So... it's my best friend's birthday today. I'm so happy yet sad. I wish I could be around to celebrate with her, but I'm not. I really hope she has an amazing day, like traffic moves out of her way, birds chirping, it's not cold and windy out, etc. Her birthday wishes extend into my blog, because that's how I roll ;). Anywho I just rolled outta bed a while ago, and I've got another dream to post...

So I was at work, patroling around and I was just minding my business. I decided to turn around on a narrow stretch of road and knew that the shoulders of the road were loose sand, so I had to be careful. In all my cautiousness I still manages to drop the rear wheels off into the sand. Alas, it wasn't "normal" sand, it was quicksand or something and before I knew it the whole truck was away from the roadway and floating in this loose sand. It was only up to the doorways, but I definately wasn't going anywhere. So I got out and pushed, in the process dropping my cell phone. I pushed the truck out of the mess with relative ease, but somehow ran over my phone thus crushing it beyone belief. Well I decided to head to safer ground and just be super sad because I lost touch with reality (my friends/phone). Along the way I was looking at my phone to survey the damage, and although it was utterly crushed, both screens destroyed, it still sort of functioned. Then for no apparent reason, I wiggled a piece of it apart as it was seemingly held together by some strange gel and for some reason I ate it. Then I kept eating it, and before long I was left with only the hinge part of the phone. It was good too, that is what was crazy. So now, left with hardly a phone at all, I went to AT&T to get a new one. That's when I realized that I had lost my SIM and all the numbers for those closest to me. That's pretty much it, I woke up, looked at my phone, sighed and got out of bed.

I'm seriously considering trading in my beloved Mumu for something more economical. Actually seriously considering a Toyota Prius. Yes, it's the extreme opposite and total opposite of "performance" but quite frankly... I'll have a lower car note and much lower "need" for gasoline. With the current global situation and ever diminishing supply of fossil fuels I figure it's time for me to bid farewell to the gas chugging, fire breathing go fast yay stuff :( My real true number 1 reason for considering the change is so I can assume the "rockstar" live I'm more accostomed to. Being able to do whatever I want whenever I want, if I want to drive 1000mi to visit a friend, or go home, only to drive 1000mi back a few days later I'll be able to. I won't have to "plan" trips, or budget anything. If I want to go out for dinner, or a lunch with some friends I won't have to worry about being able to put $60 in gas into anything. Not that I'm financially strapped, or pinching pennies but come on, lets be practical... 20gal of gas nearing $4/gal or 10gal @ $3.50... sure the prices are stretched a little, but it's not far off. It really doesn't bother me, but dangit... on a 2000mi trip it's easily $100 less the more economical way. I guess I'm getting old or something. I've gone "fast", I've had my tire shredding fun, now I think it's time for me to enjoy the fruits of a different world. Of course you know I won't get a "base" model anything. I love options, and the way I see it, a fully loaded (or nearly) economy car that is comfy isn't bad compared to a great looking, comfy, practically base luxury sedan. Sure I'll be going from a $40K car to a $20K car, but well... I'm not as balla balla as I once thought ;) Anywho, tis all for now... that's the latest and greatest on my life and times.
:: Jeremy 9:40:00 AM [+] ::
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Well it's been awhile, alas I was out of town. I took a lil vacation from "life" for a while. I had an amazing time. Words really can't describe, and it just gets better and better. I gotta go back to work tonight, and I've never been less motivated to go than I am now. It was pure torture to drive 13+hrs home and leave all the happy things behind. Things are good, I'm good... it doesn't get better. I dunno... I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. Now I'm just going to let things be and see where things go, I don't want to "force" or push for anything to happen, I'm perfectly fine with things the way they are right now, it can only hope it gets better too.
:: Jeremy 9:45:00 AM [+] ::
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Well... things have been pretty crazy lately, but it's life. The little crazy things break it up and make it interesting to say the least. All is well with me, some things are going really good, some not so good at all, but it's pretty level/even if ya ask me. I'm really considering trading Mumu in on an '08 Mustang GT with the Ford Racing S/C on it... 500bhp, 11.8 in the 1/4 for ummm <10k less than Mumu and that's not even considering the interest rates. Anywho, that's about it. Some things are good, others great and some not good at all... but all in all... I wouldn't change a thing.
:: Jeremy 3:08:00 PM [+] ::
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Well it's been crazy I guess, the usual but with a lot of twists lately. Made a new "friend" but he seems to be a lot, almost too much. Worst thing is he lives downstairs, so I see him ALL the time. I mean it's ok, I'm in his boat, not a lot of friends here because I'm not from here, but I just don't get that "good" vibe from him. He's big into cars so that's cool... at least someone understands or something. Outside of that, things have been ho-hum. I'm back to work for a few days, and I might see one of my friends I haven't seen in a while this weekend, who knows. I do know one of my friends called me crushed last night and had me sorta worried, I just can't handle crying. It's my weakness, it breaks me down. Anywho, I hope everything turned out ok for her, and even if it didn't immediately, things will be ok in the long run. What else, umm... Happy Halloween. I'll be coming home and going to bed, I had another night without any sleep. I think I got about 2hrs, as I was tossing and turning well past 2am. Grr.... got annoyed with my g/f again because she left here saying she was going home. A few hours later, I called her to talk since I couldn't sleep and she was out with her friends. Doesn't really bother me, aside from her saying she was going home. I don't need to know where she is, or what she's up to... but don't tell me one thing and do something else. It upset me, but it passed rather quickly. I don't have time to be mad and quite frankly, what is there to be upset about? I just told her to have fun and that I'd talk to her whenever. She hates when I do that, but well... whenever it will be as we're both back to our work weeks and all I do is sleep, eat, work, sleep when I'm on days. Anywho, gotta run. Hopefully I can talk to some friends today, but we're all busy with those jobs. TTFN.
:: Jeremy 4:41:00 AM [+] ::
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So what's new... I'm literally in the middle of my time off, I'll be going back in tomorrow night for a little OT hopefully, and I'm just chilling as of now. It's been rainy so the outdoor activities are kinda on hold, but it's ok. Umm... my best friend and I are talking again, which is great IMO. We've been catching up on things, and it's pretty normal, I'm glad she's getting settled in and into some sort of routine and that things are ok. Kinda sorta helped a friend work on his go-cart last night but he was welding up an exhaust for it, and there isn't much help you can offer when someone is welding, hmm... had a few wild dreams last night, but this is the only one I remember...

I was at a mall shopping, and I parked in some giant parking garage, taking obvious care to remember where I parked due to the sheer size of the lot. There wasn't anything too exciting in the mall, I bought a few things but I really wasn't after a lot of stuff anyways. So I'm walking back to my car to leave and I find it, get in and as I'm about to start the car someone raps on my window. It's a guy with mall security. I'm like WTF, and I notice some remnants of adhesive and part of the SRT8 badge from my car on my windshield. I get out and he's like, sir... we were hoping to catch you, while you were in the mall your car was vandalized. I'm like... well I noticed the badge being pulled off and some adhesive on my windshield but it's not terribly bad. He's like... you didn't notice the roof, or the scratches? Just then some little 4-wheeled robotic "dog" of sorts rolled up and stood up against the side of my car. Im like.. Woah, what is that? The guard is like, oh that's "Rover" one of our robot patrols for the parking lot. I'm like... umm ok, that's pretty high-tech for a mall. So I inspect the damages, and my roof is caved in like a sumo wrestler thought it was a trampoline, and someone keyed the hell out of the sides of the car to bare metal. I'm like, damn... they worked me over pretty good, you guys got any leads? Truns out Rover caught it all on tape and they already had the criminals detained, all they needed from me was a simple statement and my intent to press charges. Of course the "rage" in me wanted to press charges, but after reviewing the tape I found that the young teenagers were not hardened criminals, just doing something random for "fun". I pressed charges and appealed to have them do a lot of community service vice time in juvenille detention centers, taking the positive spin on corrective punishment. Dealt with the insurance company and they wound up totalling the car out. In the new car market again, I sprung for a new EVO X GSR, back to my 4cyl-turbo "roots". That's the end of the dream for the most part... the second one where Mumu gets totalled, :(
:: Jeremy 12:03:00 PM [+] ::
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Work has been kinda hectic lately, of course geting little to no sleep and hardly eating doesn't help matters. The next 2 days I won't even have cell phone service, which theoretically is like cutting off my arms or something. Anywho... I gotta eat faster and get ready for work... just wanted to update the world on my life... or something like that.
:: Jeremy 4:40:00 AM [+] ::
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Things haven't been so good, I'm losing sleep for no reason and I'm not really to be considered happy. Anywho, when I do sleep, I have my "crazy" dreams. I run from things in my sleep. It's wild. They say it's because I'm "running" from something in my life. I dunno... next time I actually sleep and have the dream I'm just gonna stop and let whatever is chasing me catch me, at least that is the plan. Last time, it was a giant anaconda. No idea why I dream of an elusive "super" snake, but at least it's a "man-eater", and I'm not running from a little garter snake or anything. Well... that's about it... off to work again, yay me I guess.
:: Jeremy 4:42:00 AM [+] ::
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What's new with me, not a whole lot. Been working lately. Even going to work some overtime this week. Finally got my part for Mumu. The Diablosport Predator handheld tuner finally released. I got it last night I threw the optimal program on then drove a bit, I wasn't that impressed, then I went in and changed a few settings this morning, and reset the TCM adaptive learning file and BAM-O, night and day... lays rubber in 1st and gets squirrely on the 1-2, chirping 2nd everytime... just like it should have from the factory. It's nice to finally "feel" the advertised 425bhp/420btq. It's not OMG amazing, but it pulls harder and definately shifts umm firmer ;) So I'm happy, but I'm probably "done" with Mumu for a while... it's gonna be a bit. Just gotta get her to the track to get new times to see if she's really any quicker.

Ummm... what else... I dunno, been chilling as much as I can. Most of my day is spent missing someone, I think about her a lot. Whatever, who knows what is in store for anyone in the future, I'm just here now... laters!
:: Jeremy 11:35:00 AM [+] ::
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Been awhile once again, just because I've been away and busy. No big, I'm still committed to posting here more often, and I truely intend to be doing more than just saying it. My best friend still isn't talking to me. Not sure what to say about that. :( but moving on.

Went to a reunion with the family. It's just my dad's side, from Grandma down, so I should've known most everyone there. Got to see the cousin's I haven't seen since we were all kids (8 y/o or so?). They're all grown up, with families of their own. Strangest thing is, nobody cared about filling in the blanks, nobody cared that it had been so long. Sure ya get the "Oh it's been a too long" hugs, but really... Anywho, my little cousins are teenagers now. It's kinda wierd, since I can remember me being a young teen and them being babies. Makes me feel like I'm starting to get old or something. It was a good weekend, but it definately wasn't all it appeared to be. My immediate family (mum + dad down) seemed to be the only ones concerned with cleaning up, and trying to keep some orgainization to the chaos. Even I chipped in and helped with dishes and trash when I could since it seemed nobody else was going to. Anywho... moving on.

Got home the other day and bought Halo 3 like I had planned. Invited a few friends over, and managed to beat the game in ~7hrs. Almost not worth it if ya think about it, but the rest of the game is fun (multiplayer). It was a let down, being that the game had such anticipation and got delayed and yet, it wasn't some epic saga that you had to play for days. Aside from that nothing. That's about it latley. On the borderline of losing sleep over something, but I guess it's better than dreams where I'm running or dying. I feel like I have a void in my life, and there is nothing I can do about it. As much as I love sleep, sometimes my dreams make me not want to. Well... off to work, I'll post more later or something.
:: Jeremy 4:38:00 AM [+] ::
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Randomly my new girlfriend was over last night, along with the rest of my friends. She finally decided it was time to go home, over an hour after her parents expected her home. Well... low and behold, as I walk her to her car, her dad pulls up. Talk about awkward, but he was cool about it and we had a brief conversation. Later that evening, I called her after she got home and he wanted to talk to me some more and it's crazyto say the least. Not the circumstances I intended to meet anyone's parents but yea... it worked out ok I think. Anywho, it still bugs me... I wish I wasn't so damn afraid to let anyone in, but everyone who has beenleft in has been hurt, if not tortured by me. I dunno, I'm a cancer. I truely feel unfit for relationships, and I carry my scars much like my heart, on my sleeve.

Right now I feel truely lost. Once again confronted by the hardest question for me to answer, who am I? There is very little in my life that I have a passion for. It leads me to question if I even know who I am, or if I'm just stuck in a rut of what I'm used to doing. I know so many things I like, but there is so little I can say I love. Without passion we're cold and selfless, I need a spark, something to make me strive for greatness. I'm just rambling... eff it I'm out.
:: Jeremy 12:40:00 PM [+] ::
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Just finished watching Pan's Labryinth, good flick. I will be buying it soon, not amazing but it was very good. Definately worth seeing, and I'll be buying it before too long. That's been my afternoon, besides getting some chinese food and hanging out with Matt for a bit. Matt is kinda grossed out by sushi but I dig it, theirs wasn't that great tho. Anywho, that's about it. my up to the minute update on the life and times of me.
:: Jeremy 2:52:00 PM [+] ::
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wow... I've grown distant once again but continue my attempts to resume blogging. It's been nearly a month since I was last here. Some things have changed, some things will never change. My life is ok, nothing exciting really. I've gotten closer to some friends, even picked up a g/f (albeit it's a strange situation, and one I'm not super excited and into, so what if I protect myself a little), but what bugs me most is that a few friends have grown to what seems a more distant relationship. It's ok, it's life... my heart still skips a beat and I still want to drop everything for certain people, and I really do love it when someone thinks of me and calls. It's nice to know you're not alone in the world. Anywho... off the emotional stuff.

Mumu's been good, I just got word from one of the companies I deal with that the much anticipated Diablosport Predator hand held tuner should ship by the end of the week, so I should finally have the device by next week, after almost 2 months of waiting and delays. Other than that, she's closing in on her 9k oil change very soon, actually too soon. I'm certain I'll go over a few hundred miles as I'm taking a trip this weekend but she'll be ok. As long as she doesn't hate me for it we'll be ok ;) Yes, I'm silly and talking about a car... haha.

Had a few wicked dreams in the last few. Seemingly common is a "running" theme, or one that I'm always being chased. "they say" that dreams of that nature are often because you're running from something in your life, hiding your feelings, or just under a lot of stress. I know why I'm running, I know what is giving me my dreams but there isn't anything I can do about it. The way I see it, nobody is dying in them so they aren't bad by comparison. Last night I had a good one. I was in some kind of giant puzzle, think SAW without the gore. It was football related. It started off by throwing a football through a hanging tire and breaking a jar which held the next clue. The clues we're crazy, written from the football's perspective. It was something like this "Ouch, that hurt, am I cut and bleeding? Proceed downstairs and await your next challenge." So I did, and it was essentially a "pick a hole" through a wall of paper scenario (think American Gladiators). I picked one, ran through and got the next clue. So on a so forth. Last clue I remember was "I do hope you're having fun, I'm having a blast. SAW me to find the next clue." To which I sawed down part of a wooden ladder and atop of it was some heavy leather gloves and a note that said... move the barbed wire, it's cold outside. I like when you punt me through the cold air, I feel like I can fly. So I did that, and then when I went to pick up the ball there was a note that said. "I feel like a kid again, thanks a million. Lets go inside and take a break, you've worked hard today. See you tomorrow...." Then I woke up... don't ask... no idea where it came from. I wasn't running and nobody died so it was good IMO. Anywho, that's about it with me. I'll post more later I guess. FINALLY RECORDED PAN'S LABRYINTH so I'll watch it later :) :) :) Yay! I'll critique it later I guess, I think I'm gonna <3 the movie, we all know I <3 who recommended it to me ;) BTW... miss you :oP'
:: Jeremy 10:53:00 AM [+] ::
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It's been a while... so here I am. Main reason, I've had another dream... one that continues to make no sense... but when have they ever. So it starts out, me and Mumu on the field at the randomest of random... A Kansas State vs Kansas football game. Don't know why, but who cares. Anywho, we were just chilling on the sideline and talking to random people and stuff. Then at halftime, I decided to walk around the stadium and wound up going to an Oreilly's auto parts store. When I was there, I ran into some chick and we started talking. I told her I was across the way back at the stadium and we should walk to get the car. She was like... lets take this way, it's quicker and we took off down some alley. We decided to run/race just for the heck of it. Along the way I ran into a thistle or something and got all kinds of annoying and painful spikey things in my shins on both legs. The chick wound up beating me back to the stadium and was all like... "see it's faster and more fun" I was obviously not thinking it was fun with all kinds of crap stuck in me then we started picking them out... end of dream. Dunno... I seem to be running in my dreams alot anymore.

Aside from that, nothing super exciting going on. Drank a few beers, played Tiger Woods '08 and went swimming last night. It was interesting to say the least. I start back to work tomorrow, which kinda blows but oh well... gotta make that $$. I guess that's about it... aside from the frustrating Tiger Wood's Photoface crap that beyond doesn't work.
:: Jeremy 4:48:00 PM [+] ::
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Well it's been a while, nothing too crazy I guess. I went off and spent the weekend at a lake house with a bunch of friends. It was a blast. Lots of drinking, lots of swimming... I didn't drown. I managed to get my nipple bit by a fish... I was just standing around, minding my business and the bugger took a nibble. It hurt like woah, but oh well. That's about the extent of my weekend really. It was fun, plan to do it again sometime. Anywho, did laundry and washed Mumu again today, took a few showers, and the damn heat is killing me. It's been 100+ for the last week or whatever.
:: Jeremy 6:39:00 PM [+] ::
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Nothing super exciting really. I washed and waxed Mumu yesterday since it's going to be 100+ for the next ever (week easily) and about died doing so (it's hot I tell you) but she's super clean looking (yay!). Anywho, last night I went out to hang with my peeps etc. More of the usual. Then some random people started showing and acting a fool, being drunk and underage and all that... so we went somewhere else. It's a little more off the beaten path and we we're trying to incite a certain someone to run another friend of mine so I would up running my friend a few times. It wasn't a contest, wasn't meant to be, but it was fun for the most part. The other person didn't take the bait and then we got the bright idea to make a burnout pit (wet a section of the road) and destory some tires. I bowed out of this competition because ... tires are expensive. It was funny... and really helped keep the bugs away. Anywho, that was my night. I need to get to the grocery store before too long, as I've pushed everything back and need to get stuff out of the way before I start back to work. That's all... my "update"... laters.
:: Jeremy 12:10:00 PM [+] ::
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Last night's festivities... it was a slow night, but we all met up as usual. The usual discussions about nothing. I was using Mumu as the "radio" for to add ambiance (haha) to the dull night. When some guy (I don't know all their names) limps in on E, trucks "dead" in the water. Someone runs to get a gas can (I offered but they lived closer) and returns a few mins later. After he's back from filling up, the nearly empty gas can sits. A friend squeezes it and it whistles as the air enters/exits. He continues to squeeze it, making a "musical mockery" out of it all. Then someone lights a cigarette... and the idea is sparked like the flames that insue. He holds the lit lighter out and a fireball erupts... hehe... we're all a little pyro... let the fun begin... after several times he's lacking hair on his forearm, hand and starting to complain of it being too hot anymore. So I offer him a glove... several more fireballs and he's done because he burns his arm... then I offer a somewhat flame retardant shirt to wrap his arm in... and they got to producing flame-thrower-esque fireballs.... ahh... the fun one can have when slightly bored. That's really about it, the night in a nutshell. I think I'm going to go do laundry now... laters
:: Jeremy 10:27:00 AM [+] ::
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Holy crazy dreams batman... I know I was going to be doing laundy, but I was kinda tired so I napped some more. So the dream. It was with a certain someone who I adore, and we were together, but she was in some "secret society" (like some movie skulls or something). Anywho, so while out in Public and with the "society" I got dissed by her, but around her away from everything it was cool, like it really is. Anywho... I get crap from all the guys in the society for not fitting in, not being one of them etc. Well one day I go over to the Mansion where all of them live and was trying to get the girl to come with me. I managed to get past the security guards and get to the door but I got shunned and immediately harrassed by the other members of the society. She was in a room upstairs watching from a window as they all harrassed me. Then this other chick got in her car to leave and bumped Mumu a little... all it did was bend the bumper, and I walked over and popped it out, rubbed the scratches and although really upset tried to play it off. So she does some James Bond crap and a switchblade pops out of her bumber and she stabs mine and puts a gash along the front bumper. This got me hot... I start yelling at her all like WTF? It's one thing for you all to shun me and try to keep me from the one I love, but it's something else for you to eff up my entire life over it... so chick gets out with a Desert Eagle .50cal handgun and shoots a few rounds into Mumu (through the windshield) and she's like... stop being such a whiney bitch. (the irony of my dreams kills me sometime... verbatim using words I've used lately). My girl, hearing the gunshots and finally realizing it's all gone too far complains to some old lady (who is "in charge" of the society), and everything gets called off... all the hostility stops as they walk out of the Mansion, and I get invited in. The old lady and I talk... she is being kind and considerate. She understands our love, understands that my backgrounds isn't as glamorous as the rest of the society but offers me membership. I, unsure of it, am kind of like... I dunno. Let me think about it. So My love and I go off to tour the Mansion and to discuss things. Meanwhile... Mumu is getting fixed and worked on... Later I find she's in MINT condition with the 426ci stroker, remote turbo, ported/polished heads and an agressive cam I dream about... all to sway my opinion, and to show gratitude for the way the members lashed out at me. SO while touring, some of the members got mischievious. As Miss amazing and I were walking around they started harrassing us, saying she was wrong for bringing me here, and that me being here is only so she doesn't have to die (she can't leave the society, so she'd have to be killed to "leave and be with me"). We try to hide from them, tryto hide from the harrassment... then things get crazy. They start walking through walls, and moving super fast etc... all vampiric (is that a word?). Anywho... totally getting freaked, she decides to try and run away with me. Of course there was some crazy chase in my head, but we didn't make it. They caught us before we even left the mansion and once again we're before the "head master". She explains that she's been more than sympathetic and that we are not taking the proper course of action. We are not barred from the society but we're more or less reduced to prisoners for a while. (like Paris Hilton, because w'ere not in a dungeon or anything... hell not even shackeled, just under observation). Later we're all out on the giant porch, and my woman had to go somewhere... so I'm alone with the others again. The one chick who jacked up my car is somewhat watching me, and we catch eyes. One of the guys notice, and tell me that she did all of that because she wants me. I'm like, you know how I feel about L*, I don't care what she thinks, plus who the hell destroys the car of some guy they like? Anywho... a few mins later, words circled around and she (other girl) came over all crazy pissed because I wasn't interested. I explained that she knew the story, knew how I felt about L* etc but she continues to back me into a corner. Then... seemingly instantaneously... L* comes back outside and this chick "jumps" me. L* sees this the wrong way gets super mad, "flies" (vampires I tell you) over, throws chick off of me and across the porch into the yard and punches me super hard in the gut. Then she threw me into the yard. Obviously over matched, and trying to reason I'm pleading my case on deaf ears. Finally one of the others, seemingly the ringleader of the discourse in me, speaks on my behalf to stop L* from tearing me apart. The gesture is very welcomed on my behalf and she finally believes my story, and feels bad for beating me up over it all. The other girl comes over to apologize, for causing the trouble and falls on deaf ears as well... not because I'm ignoring her, or L* is mad... but because we were in the middle of one of the longest, most passionate kisses ever, the world stopping and nothing else mattering to us. After the kiss we go back inside to the "headmaster" and I agree to join their "cult/society" and the old lady is pleased that I accept. She reminds me that with all the power and prosperity I'll soon have, that I'm forever what I am today (the whole vampires never age yada yada yada), and I willingly accept as L* and I retire to her chambers and she makes me one of them. 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:: Jeremy 9:43:00 AM [+] ::
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So yea... hit that "another year older mark". Had a good one. I was supposed to work, but I called in to hang with my friends, why not, it's my party and I'll cry if I want to right? Anywho... hung out with "the beer lady" all day, she's a pretty nice lady. We really didn't do anything at all, she kept egging me to go up to LR, or Hot Springs or something... get away from everything and do something fun but I wasn't interested, and wound up going over to Cycle anyways. Went up to my old "neck of the woods" and picked up another friend so she could hang out too... but she came equipped... she brought a little cat-o-nine tails (minus the metal flails thank goodness) and told me I was getting my birthday spanking... which I was kinda like... a little too S&M for me, and ya'll are lucky I didn't bring my running shoes b/c none of you could catch me if I was in the mood to run. Anywho, we get over there and we're all just hanging. Seemingly at the exact same time... a red Stang goes by revving at us and my friend is trying to coordinate a "sneak attack" so I can get my spanking. I'm like, I'll be back ... run and jump in Mumu and my friend is like... hell no, you can't leave... I'm like.. I'm just going to play, I'll be right back, I promise... I'm not scared of a little spanking. Anywho... I run him down and he's getting on the freeway. I drop it down a few gears so I'll be above 4K (in the powerband) and inch up next to him then lunge forward... and wait. He wants to play... yay me. He stays behind me, I jump on it, he follows... and by 110 I've got a car or two on him, and by 130 I've got 4. I let out and slow back down, hoping he'll pull up beside for rd. 2 but he doesn't. I exit and turn right, towards the "country" and open 2lane in each direction roads, and he turns left. So i bust a U-ey and follow him into a gas station. Turns out it was a Cobra, or at least badged as such. Guy was quite impressed, and very suprised at how hard my car pulls up top. I was like thanks... I thought you were "just a GT" at first, so do you have anything done? And we BS for a bit. He also made the mistake of NOT knowing that that SRT8 badge really means, He was like... I wasn't gonna play till I saw the hemi badge.. I've been wanting to play with one of the new hemi's... Well... this isn't the 5.7L in the "normal" hemi vehicles, but the SRT8 6.1L is only about 80-100hp more than the 5.7L is. He was quite impressed and I invited him out if he ever needed something to do... Mumu 1... Cobra 0.... score! So I head back to Cycle, get a call along the way ... "Did you get pulled over, no, Did you run him, Yes, did you win, Oh yea... and it was a Cobra". Anywho, I get back... and it's spanking time. I don't run, I knew it was coming, and well... an attractive lady with a little whip can't be that bad can it? It really wasn't that bad after a few lashings, she had a knack for hitting the same spot tho... then another friend gave her a sawed off boat paddle... and one good whack with that and I was like... no mas... so it was back to the lil whip. Then another friend wanted a few swings, being a guy and all... he put a little more ummph into it and yea... still wasn't super painful. Needless to say... I'm not hanging with these friends on my b-day next year... and if I do... I'll wear a few pairs of shorts or something for padding.

Also car related... a bunch of guys at work ride bikes. There is this one guy who is kinda short and rides a Kawi ZX6R. I've been meaning to play with him for some time... and finally got chance, granted... the blue car woulda been more fun but oh well... I never turn down a chance to play. So i catch him on the freeway, slow to I dunno... 90 and we go... all the way to 130 and he can't pull on me. So we slow again... from 85 to 120 and he can't pull on me. Knowing this guy, I know he was all in it, and I am very suprised to see that Mumu can hold her own like that. Mumu 0, ZX6R 0, Draw 2. Needless to say... I've been saying for a long time (since wanting an SRT8 and since owning one) that all the power is "up top"... They're kinda slow from a dig (you get 4160lbs rolling, ok?) but above 4Krpms they pull. With peak torque at 5200, and peak hp at almost 6K it's no wonder that they love the high rpms.

Randomly... took a friend on a beer run last night, after the Cobra incident, and afterthe spanking. I decided to get some taco bell. Well the lady in front of us was taking forever and I felt like being an ass or whatever... so after I ordered I pulled around a nd lit them up a lil. The punk kid at the window is all.... What the eff was that for? I say nothing, I'm not going to yell. So when I get to the window he's like... hey what the eff was that all about? I'm like... look... I know this job is boring, I was just trying to brighten your day, give ya a little excitement. He's like... yea... well I have to clean the parking lot and I've got to get rid of your "black spots" now. I laugh inside because he calls them blackspots... and get that evil little grin. He's like here's your food, all Mr. Attitude... so of course... I pull forwards slightly, power brake a nice smokey one and roll it out a good 20-30ft so he has some nice black lines to go with the black spots. A few mins later, back at Cycle, a fine officer in PBPD pulls in, spotlighting Mumu, and asks who's Charger it is. I come over... he's like... were you acting a fool over at Taco bell a minute ago? I'm like yes sir, just playing around but they didn't think it was fun at all. He's like yea... and it makes more work for me, just don't do it again ok? 10-4, have a good night sir. Then he's like... Oh, and you all better not be hanging out here when I get back (idle threat), and he leaves. For some reason he doesn't realize we have the owner's son, and they're "adopted son" in our group with us and yea... how ya gonna kick us off where when the property owner is there saying it's ok and we're not causing any ruckus (no loud stereos, yelling etc)... yup... he can't. Anywho... he never came back. That's about it... came home and went to bed... ahh the fun. Sometimes, I have too much fun with my life... but life goes on. Only one thing could have made it all better, but I hope she's having a weekend that makes mine seem trivial... hope you're having a great weekend babe :) <3 ya, and wish you could be around for the crazyness sometimes. PS... you can give me my b-day spanking whenever if ya want... but damn... 26 is a lot... I'm over halfway to 50 and I don't even wanna think about getting spanked by nurses in the nursing home... haha
:: Jeremy 11:27:00 AM [+] ::
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So just woke up fomr a crazy dream and you gotta post that ish right? So basically I was called into a massive manhunt for my best friend that I've known forever because I knew him better than anyone. It was crazy... right off the bat we were stealing cars, shooting at each other and even Mumu got involved as he picked her keys from my pocket I saw him running through a crowd and was hauling ass afer him. Got out into the parking lot and was like... where the heck is he... then heard Mumu fire up. I was like... WTF? and my keys were not in my pocket. I was like... SOB and took off in a mad dash to catch my car. He came sliding sideways down the lane of the parking lot, clipped me with a fender and stopped to talk ish, but I was gone. I had evaded his attempt and was now on the passangers side opening the door. He hammered down on it, jerking violently trying to shake me from the moving car, and finally... I lost my grip, tumbled to the pavement and watched Mumu speed away. I commendered a nearby vehicle and attempted to keep pace with him before he PIT manuvered a car creating a pileup behind him on the freeway and blocking off the highway.. Anywho, the part right before I woke up we had lost him again as he fled at very high speeds on the freeway after creating a roadblock. Myself and all the other people involved in the manhunt were in a giant conference room in some big ol skyscraper. I was at the front, as I was practically leading the hunt and he was there. It was so vast that he was way in the back, and turns out... he had killed a trooper while "lost" and was in disguise as that trooper. While briefing on things to look out for, a USAF thunderbird dropped in (ironically flying more UFO than any actual aircraft we have), and it turned and darted about. Big brother was watching and knew he was in the building. Suddenly the pilot swung the plane around and blew up a corner of the building with 2 missles causing it to crash down into the street (very 9/11... all I can think of). Anywho, this was "big brothers" solution since they knew he was and blowing up the building was deemed "collateral damage". Well he didn't die, and I was back to giving chase.... we both had managed to get below the impact area and we were running through the rest of the building. He was desparely trying to change his disguise and was now dressed as a woman with a 5'oclock shadow. He managed to put some bandages on his face and the exact moment I woke up) some lady had him stopped talking to him about abusive husbands... then I got a phone call. Happy birthday to me! Thanks sweetheart.,.. that dream was effin nuts. It was really great to hear from you, always when I leaast expect it. Anywho... that was my dream.

So the other night I caught a flat in Mumu. As EVERYONE knows, the SRT8's do not come with spares (big rotors/calipers (brakes), and limited trunk space = a can of fix a flat and an ait compressor). This wasn't a hole fix a flat would do anyhing for, so I was screwed. I limped home on a flat, and got a little "rash" on the outer lip of the wheel (not really noticeable unless you get in close. Needless to say... $260 later for a new tire and I'm seriously after some aftermarket wheels eventually... that and... I'm beginning to think Mumu's cursed.

That's pretty much it right now... it's my b-day. Thanks to EVERYONE who has endured another year of my crazyness. Special thanks to those closest to me, and those who although at times I've been not so friendly, have stuck it out and are still here for me. I love you.... all of you, a certain someone in a a more than a friend way, but we'll just have to see how that works out. Thanks for being there... in good times and in bad... I'm forever indebted to by friends, without you guys/gals I'd be long gone by now.
:: Jeremy 10:15:00 AM [+] ::
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Hey everyone, I'm doing ok I guess. I've been horrible lately to be honest. I was pretty crazy, and wound up hurting a few very close friends. I am pretty much in love with someone who is in love with someone else, and whatever... it got to me, and drove me crazy. I dunno... can't really explain, but I wanted to see her way more than I could, and it frustrated me. I kinda went off the deep end over it... spent a few weeks as an emoitonal wreck then "blew up" and told her some very mean things. It still baffles me. Why I was so mean, rude and hurtful to her. I've said I was sorry 1000x and wished it to be undone but life doesn't work that way. You have to live with your mistakes. I'm sorry for putting so much into it, and wishing so madly that it'd work my way. The world doesn't always work the way you want it to, and you cannot choose who loves you, or make anyone want/love you more. We were close, we were very good friends, we had some sorto f feelings for each other, some connection aside from the friendly hello... and I ruined it all. I just hope she heals with me, rebuilds on the crumbled ruins of the past and hopefully we can build something a little more stable, something I have learned that I cannot pursuade into something it is not. I've never been so mean to someone so close to me in my life, and I'm just glad she didn't throw away all the good years we've had over my selfish, childish and hurtful mistakes. Thank you, I'm looking forward to moving on, rebuilding, and although it may never be the same... maybe it will be new and improved.

Aside from that... I've worked a lil, 4 nights in a row... some kind of record for me. Lately I've had a horrible time getting to work. I'm pretty well sick of my job. It's the long hours and lack of anything going on. Literally watching the grass grow, or collecting data for a thesis on mosquitoes. I need to get off my lazy butt, make myself marketable and get into my "career" before I rot away sitting on my butt destined for "security" jobs for all eternity. Hmm... What else...

300 finally comes out on DVD tomorrow... I'll be out picking it up. Hopefully I don't have to go to LR, but if I do, I'll be swinging by the dealership. I've been getting a Tire Pressure Monitoring system error ever since I got the car back from the body shop. I think they just "flopped" the front wheels and that's all it is, but I dunno... not like I can work on the car in my parking lot (mumu's fat butt SINKS the jack and jackstands into the pavement... making it... interesting to get her down). We'll see... it doesn't matter to me, they all "read" right, as in the right pressure... just give me that annoying error. Umm but yea... 300... tomorrow night, my place... on Blu-Ray (of course), be there or be square... j/p You all know it'll be me, alone, wallowing in my misery watching a bad ass movie... at least everyone doesn't hate me, but everyone that matters to me doesn't exactly "like" me right now. Well I guess this is it for this episode... lots of drama lately, lots of thing I caused directly... can't undo anything in life, so I'll have to see how the path unfolds now.
:: Jeremy 12:25:00 PM [+] ::
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Nothing super new or exciting in my life. My life has regained all sorts of normality as my now ex-girlfriend has left, although some of her stuff still remains here. I'm not the coolest with it, but I give her until tomorrow, then I'll be like... hey... do you want this stuff or what? I want my key back since I never see you anymore and you're running around with your friends all night/day. Whatever... I've been more than nice, if you know about this situation, you know I've bent over backwards for her and been more than accomidating.

Got up today, when the woman I pine for woke me up for our seemingly usual morning conversation. All was well and I rolled out of bed shortly after, jumped in the shower to further awaken myself and then went to do laundry. Upon completion of that task, I decided to wash Mumu. She was pretty dirty, lots of bugs on her front end (I hate bugs, the acidic nature of their guts literally eats and pits paint... grr) Came home, chilled for a bit, chatted with previosuly mention object of my desire and then decided to get some cereal, milk and a new video game for the PS3. So now it appears that I'll play some NCAA football '08 after I get off of here and continue my life of seclusion. That pretty much wraps up my day today...

Lat night I sat around, with nobody to talk to, and nobody around... it was... peaceful to say the least. I fired up Forza Motorsport 2 on the 360 and completed 50 or so races before retiring to bed. I made the decision that since the mooch, aka "Sally", was gone that I was going to sleep in my own bed. It's the first time in nearly a week that I've slept in a bed as I was being more than accomidating to the situation. I snuggled with Pillow L*#@ and went to bed. No strange, savage, etotic or crazy dreams... so it must have been a good night. All in all... my life has stabalized in the absence of "Sally" and things couldn't be better, okay they could... but it's just a pipe dream.
:: Jeremy 1:41:00 PM [+] ::
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As usual I'm sorry for not posting like I said I would, and becoming more of a regular again, but alas... it's been a month or so and I've got updates galore.

About a week after my last post, 6/23/07 I had a big Chargerforums.com meet in Little Rock, AR. Turned out to be a wash, as rain was in the forecast and people had stuff come up, but we managed to get 6 guys together, 2 of which came from out of state. After that I had a get together for a local forum, Synergy501.net, and we had a cruise to one of the local drag strips planned. It was going good, then it started torain. Eventually it stopped, they got to drying the track, but then it rained again and I decided to head home. Made it about 10miles and some guy in a pickup truck with a trailer full of watermelons decided to trun left in front of me. Had it not been raining I most definately could have stopped. It was all cosmetic, just ripped the front bumper off and knocked out the headlights. I just got the car back from the body shop a few days ago, it was ~$4300 in damage... expensive are these automobiles.

So the next day, the 24th... I go to some pool party with a few friends. I kinda spark an interest in a girl because I find her kinda cute. We get to talking and a few days later decide to start dating. It got messed up, too much too fast and yea... it's still a mess I'm dealing with. I'm just trying to get my life back in order, get my apartment back to myself and move the heck on with my life, that was a disaster IMO. I wasn't ready, wasn't really interested in a relationship with that woman and it got way out of hand way too fast.

:: Jeremy 12:45:00 PM [+] ::
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Forgot... song of the moment... ok.. my new fav (replaces "Hey There Delilah" by the Plain White T's, which I <3, but I'm just not in that mood right now)... "Icky Thump" by The White Stripes.
:: Jeremy 6:12:00 PM [+] ::
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The weekend...

Went to pick up Brannon in Conway before heading to the 'Ville. We're cruising in LR, ran into a friend with a modded Lightning. It's 396whp/471wtq if I remember correctly (I'm somewhere around 370-380whp/350-360wtq)... and we went out to a private course and stretched them out a lil. Mumu (my '07 Charger SRT8) took him by about a car each time.. I was pleastly suprised. Then cruised to the Ville. Got there, waited like 45mins then decided to run. Engine was still above 200deg, but I cut an 11.32@95mph (1000') which isn't bad for right off the highway. So I let her cool off a bit more... with Brannon in the car I ran an 11.39@93mph. Then I decided to let her cool off a lot more. A few hours later... I saddled up and with still "warm" engine temps (170deg) I cut a 11.05@97mph, which made me hot lap for an 11.14@95mph. Moral of the story... bring a few bags of ice for the intake mani next week... let her cool off to 150deg or so and then cut a 10.8-10.9 1K' (high 12's in the 1/4)... not bad for a 4150lb (full tank, no driver) car, with 4 doors, and for being nearly stock (intake). So on the way back from the track... I found a long stretch of an abandoned airport runway and wanted to see if she could top out (*cough cough)... They say they run 170mph and I've seen the "top speed recorder" say 170.8 on someone else's SRT8... so I layed into it... at 165.2mph I decided enough was enough and she could easily go 170mph if not faster (got 180 on the speedo). That's about it, really. I'm trying like crazy to help my friend with her situation. I really care about her, no doubt... but I don't want to get in the way of what she has, and cloud her decision. It's hard for me to support her and want her relationship to work, but I've been her friend for years so it's what I should do. I've got the good in me wanting her to be happy, and for everything to be "perfect", and then the bad in me is wanting a moment of saddness as things come crashing down while I'm there to help her pick up the pieces. You know who you are... and you'll probably read this... you're like my subscriber... and you're very dear to me indeed. I <3 being vauge and nondescriptive so as to remain "out" of the issues at hand.
:: Jeremy 5:55:00 PM [+] ::
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Wow... been forever and a day. Lets see... The wife and I finally had our final go round, and I admitted to her that I had cheated on her, almongst being unhappy for almost 2.5yrs, and we decided to get a divorce. The divorce was final on the 5th of June. So now I'm on my own, as she is... and I've got myself a nice apartment with nothing fancy for furniture, I bought myself a new car... although I never thought I'd get rid of my SRT4, but I traded up for a '07 Dodge Charger SRT8... Sure it's not as fast as the SRT4 was persay, but it's much a much nicer ride, seats 5 comfortably and still has a little get up and go. I'll be taking Mumu (SRT8's nickname) to the track to see if her 4150lb (w/o driver w/full tank of gas) can get down the 1000ft track in (I estimate low 11's, high 10's). Hmm what else... I've got a pretty crazy life going on right now.. it's good tho. Got some really good friends to help me through it all (Thanks L*, and Matt ;) ). Well that's all for now.. TTFN... promise I'll post more soon... haha
:: Jeremy 7:09:00 PM [+] ::
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Yea... so today is ... nothing new. Being my man servant/domesticated self and doing laundy, and went grocery shopping. I have fun grocery shopping. Took me all of 20mins in the store, checking out and all ... men shop so much differently than women. The wife makes it a drag to go to the grocery store. Nothing exciting, just my usual fuel for the fire. Lots of green and red peppers, and onions. I seem to eat a lot of "fajitas" but whatever... it's quick and easy. Ummm yea... nothing new really. The car is dirty because it rained, I've got no ambition to go to the track this weekend and I'm on the verge of a trade. My stock 17"x6" wheels with 225/45/17 BFG G-Force DR's for an amp and a kicker solo baric l5 sub (I'd prefer the l7, but if it's a trade I'm down). Then I just have to buy a new head unit, an install kit (wiring kit), and an amp wiring kit (super easy because I'll buy some "0" or "00" wire and relocate my battery too), and I'll have most of my "audio" mods done. Anywho... tis all for right now. Jamming to some "electronic" music, waiting for the weekend to start... maybe I'll get lucky and someone won't know about the "little blue neon" and I'll get to dust an unsuspecting victim... haha Oh, the wife and I are planning to go on a cruise in October. I strongly dislike open water (deeper than I am tall) and have been on ships in the past... but I dunno. I just see her ofting me heaving me overboard in the middle of the night, in the middle of nowhere and I soon become shark food. haha If I had to swim a mile to save my life I think I'd drown. haha Laters.
:: Jeremy 11:51:00 AM [+] ::
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Gotta use this for something... a little dream I had this morning. Just minutes ago, so it's fresh in mym ind. Second time I've had "this" dream too... effin creepy, Texas Chainsaw Massacre creepy.

It started with my and the wife in a hotel lobby trying to get a room and there were a few teenagers just there hanging out (3 girls and a boy). Well I get to looking around and the boy somehow or another gets my pants... so I'm chasing him around half nekkid trying to get my pants, and the wife joins in to assist me. She gets the pants into a tug of war with the kid and I just kind of hide behind the counter half nekkid. I get to talking to the lady behind the counter, and she's just getting a big kick out of all of this. Anywho, the teenage girls get up and leave, and the lady is all like... you like them young? I'm like... hell no, I'm married and if anything I like them a little older than me with expierence. She takes this as flirting and starts talking about how boring her job is and how it has it's little perks. Tells me how some lonely truckers will stop by and she'll pay them a little visit if they bargain right and just crazy stuff. Meanwhile some security guard appears out of nowhere and helps my wife get my pants back and chases the teenagers down a hallway, into the hotel. Well the wife and I finally get a room, and I magically have pants again... it's a dream and my stuff is wack if you haven't noticed. We get to the door to the room and there are the teenagers again getting the room next to us... I'm just like... silly punks. So we go into the room, and it's some crazy light green paisely wallpaper and all the furniture is adorned in a perfectly matching fabric so it's all some eerie green room. The wife and I set down our stuff and try to get settled in, and I notice that one of the walls look funny and the mirror on it just doesn't look right. I poke at the mirror and it flexes a little... as if it were plexiglass. I'm like... huh... so I poke harder, and more agressively, only to find that the entire wall isn't "solid". It appears to almost be a heavy curtain. So the wife and I lift the curtain, and just behind the mirror is a chair, a big '50's era chair behind the mirror to "watch" what goes on in the room. Stuff is getting kinda creepy now, and the wife and I get to exploring a little. There is one other door to this "room" behind the curtain and we can hear some people talking. We walk through the door and down a hallway filled with rooms just like the one we left on either side, along all of the other rooms. We get closer to the voices, and then find a room at the end, it's kind of like a den with an attached kitchen. Inside on the left (den) there is an older couple, easily in their 80's. On the right (kitchen) there are 4 people sitting at a small table, the lady from the desk; the security guard; some middle aged, rough and overweight man; and another older lady, probably in her 50's. When we walk in (I'd never really walk in, but in the dream I did), the "rough" looking man says "See, told you it wouldn't take them long, they're a smart bunch this time". I'm like... you're all some crazy fucked up bastards, you know that? We're out of here, sickos. Out of my superhuman perephial vision (behind me) I see the old lady move about, reaching for something she had hidden from view. So I snatch her hand only to find her having a little squirt gun. This causes quite a stir from the group in the "kitchen", and they all get up. I'm like... hey now, everyone stay calm, we're just trying to leave in peace. Well the other older lady (the 50-ish one in the kitchen) starts making some shady movement, and I see she has a big (8" or 9") chef's knife in her hand. I agressively approach her and get her in an armbar (on her right arm, with the knife) and place her in a rear naked choke with my left arm (not effective because of the one handed application). I get her to drop the knife and I push her towards the other 3 people. Now the old man in the den is stirring, so I lunge across the room with the knife and stab the old timer. No time to think now, the hornets nest has been stirred. I'm darting and lungeing about as they're throwing things at me, and the security guy's taking poorly aimed shots. I get close enough and slash the lady from the desks' achilles, sending her to the floor. I rise up and using the fat "rough" man as a shield from the rent-a-cop, and make a strong sharp slash on the backside of his neck, severing his spinal cord. I can't use him as a shield very long at all, as his weight is too much for me to hold up so I drop him and charge the guard. I parry his outreached (aimed) right arm and hit him with a right elbow in the jaw. This sends him reeling, and I connect with a muay tai roundkick to his left leg and drop him to one knee, then I come with a left knee directly to his face to send him into a dark, quiet place. I pick up his gun and shoot everyone one time in the head, but run out of bullets before I put on in the "rough" man's melon, so I use the butt of the pistol to drive the chefs knife across his spinal cord, nearly lopping off his head just to make sure he won't be getting up again (horror movie "classic" they come back for more). The wife and I flee though a door which leads outside and run to our car. When we get there I hear something stiring behind me. It's the lady from the desk, still alive (I only cut her achilles and shot her in the head after all hehe) and she's got a shotgun trying desperately to stop us. I don't have my keys, and the wife drops hers in panic as we try to get in the car and leave. The woman gets closer and her aim becomes more precise. I tell the wife to duck behind the car, out of the line of fire and I start thinking of how I'll manage to take her out. Just then, out of pure luck she has to stop to reload. I make a mad dash towards her, still armed with the knife. She finishes reloading just before I get there and she sights in on me. It's too late to stop now, so I raise the knife for one "all or nothing" slash, and just as I'm coming down onto the side of her neck I hear the click of the hammer. I take the muzzle of the shot gun right in the stomach, and the lady and I fall to the ground. This crazy bitch is still living even though her head is nearly lopped off by the last slash I dealt to the right side of her neck. She's rolling on the ground with me trying to choke me with the barrel of the shotgun. I manage to roll her over and get a good position and commence "ground and pound" on her, bashing her face with repeated elbows. Finally, after what seems like an eternity I get her to give up, her will is lost and seconds later I hear her sigh her last breath. Lucky for me that click was one in a million, the hammer and pin dropping on an empty chamber. The wife pulls up next to me in the car, and I get in. Bloody, muddy, beaten and bruised... I'll clean the leather later, as the wife pulls some "Steve McQueen in Bullet" driving moves (she'd never slide a car around), and we leave that hell. Then I wake up as we drive into the sunset....

No kidding... it's a dream, and I've had it twice. Sounds like a hollywood screenplay but really... a dream. Sometimes the imagination and subconscious really mind fuck you. What really disturbs me is that it's the second time I've had that dream. It's way too Texas Chainsaw Massacre for me too... Anywho...

Aside from that life is good. I'm pretty happy, the wife's pretty happy (although super busy), and I've got some great friends online to talk to. I'm done for now... I have to try to post on here more though, it's entertaining.
:: Jeremy 6:20:00 AM [+] ::
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Wow... been a long time again... I promise I'll post here someday. I just have to... hehe I know everyone misses my crazy antics, and elaborate tongue. Anywho, peace out.... got beer to drink haha.
:: Jeremy 7:39:00 PM [+] ::
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Ick... I just cannot seem to get "into" this anymore. I guess I live a boring life. More of the usual I guess... if I had more time maybe I'd type more...but I guess I'll give my vacation story tomorrow after I get home from work... it sounds like a plan to me. Catch ya later biches... TTFN>
:: Jeremy 1:06:00 PM [+] ::
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It's been a while... almost a year... anyways nothing new in coopersville. I'll catch up later... don't have time to write now. Hasta luego!
:: Jeremy 9:59:00 PM [+] ::
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Had a good day yesterday. Went up to Little Rock, met up with Tyler and looked for an ION Redline or a Cobalt SS to drive but no luck. Some guy at Bain Chevy in WLR was like... "...No we'd have to order it. It's designed for the younger generation, but the younger people cannot afford it... It's going for about $26K right now..." (Taken out of context) WTF? Why did GM make the damned thing if the target customers cannot afford it? $26K for that? It's a rip off and a half. Hmm...

Ran with a blue 350Z for a while. Probably could have taken him but we were not going from a honk just going and he always took off after I just let off the gas aka... got the jump. Stopped and talked to him for a bit... snapped a pic too... well Tyler did. Very close in Color. Guy was shocked that I "hung with him" as he's dusted some other SRT-4's apparently (even though stock for stock a SRT-4 is a little faster, so I blame drivers) I've got a pic of the cars on my angelfire page. I destroyed some "riced" out Mid 90's Mustang GT, so bad that I think it might have been a V6 with GT badges. It was pretty harsh.

After that I had a few other runs, my friend Tim's 20th Ann. VW GTI, I was shocked that I beat him... thought he'd pull on me. Hmmm I dunno... ate some good German food, talked with "the guys + a few of the signifant others" for a few hours. All in all it was a good day... besides me exhaust still not shipping... grrr... Anywho, things get more and more like Oki everyday... going out eating good food and racing, brings back memories! Hasta Luego
:: Jeremy 1:40:00 AM [+] ::
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So yea... nothing exciting has been going on, and I'm pretty bored... So tonight I'm going up to Little Rock, meeting with some friends, then driving down to Hot Springs to go eat at some German Restaurant. I dunno... Should be fun. I think it's only going to be like 10 people in our group, but I've got to see this guy Tim's VW. He got in an accident a month or so back and got like $6K from the insurance company, and didn't have any "real" damage, so he put a ton of modifications on. It's looks pretty shibby in pics but pics don't do justice. Anywho, I dunno... I've got a cracked/ripped connector on one of the Vaccum lines... aka a boost leak. It's upsetting but whatever... I might swing by Landers Dodge today too and see if I can get a new one. Hmmm.... I dunno... talked to some people yesterday online... one of my friends is buying my old xbox for $50 (It's broken too). I'd give it to him but I know like $70 could fix it, but I'm too lazy. He mods xboxes for a "side job" so it works for me ya know? Anywho... hasta luego!
:: Jeremy 8:48:00 AM [+] ::
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Got bored and tweaked on the car a bit... took out my stock airbox and put the K&N filter on the tubing to the airbox... kind of makes a Short Ram Intake. Drove around a bit.. runs a little better... Right now it's all the small things to make power. Still waiting on my exhaust, I figuere it's good for at least 12whp, but I'm thinking 15-20whp range because it's less restrictive than the exhausts that have made 12whp. Anywho, killing time is hard stuff... I need to get a second job or something. Anywho, hasta luego!
:: Jeremy 4:05:00 PM [+] ::
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Got bored today... made this http://www.arimport.com/forum/uploads/833-141_sig.jpg A little signature for my chat forums. I dunno... whatever...
:: Jeremy 2:24:00 PM [+] ::
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Well nothing too exciting... same old same old. Still waiting for my exhaust to get here. Other than that... just work and relax. I'm really hoping to have some friend over for a semi-party this week. I've been really bored latley and lack a lot of ambition. Hmm... that's about it for my "exciting" life. I wasted 12 hours yesterday just sitting by a stop sign making people stop (evil huh) and taking up a semi-concealed position watching them slow down as they sped by... being a "cop" is nice sometimes.
:: Jeremy 1:05:00 PM [+] ::
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So yea... went to "the races" tonight... Nothing exciting. 100 people of so standing around b.s.'ing. One run on the way there I pulled and left a Mustang GT (00-04) from 80-140MPH. Once there we all chatted and stuff, ridiculed the "ricers". Then it was time to leave, it was getting later, I left a big smoky burnout b/c some tool in a GT Cruiser (Same engine as my car in a PT Cruiser) did one. Then I ran a friend of mine on the freeway ('00 Pontiac GTP pulley swap, cutout, etc, etc). From a roll at like 35-40 MPH it was a pretty close race. Ultimatley I took him by a car or so, but it was fun running him since he puts up better times at the track then I do. Then I just cruised home and viola... here I am now. Anywho, didn't swing by and say "hi" to other chica that was mentioned in a previous post b/c that would be just creepy... her "Oh hey well I work around the corner here", next night Me "Hey what's going on... working huh?" Nope... not for me. Anywho.. good night.. catch you all later.
:: Jeremy 12:42:00 AM [+] ::
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So yesterday... all is well... enjoying a day off... just minding my own business. An old friend IM's me. Well her and I used to be fairly good friends online, until she took my lack of informing her of my engagement to my now wife the wrong way. I cannot blame her for this. Anywho, we get to talking. A lot has changed since her and I last spoke, mainly me living a lot closer to her, and of course being out of the Marines, married and having some pretty good employment. So yea, I'm glad her and I are talking again. It was a thorn in my side. I hate hurting people and stuff. So I'm happy. Her and I will probably meet up sometime and become real friends. It's like resolution. On the other hand it has me wondering why? After all of this time why now? I can list a million thoughts as to why but it would all be speculation, I think I'll just ride out the storm and let it take me where it wants to go.
:: Jeremy 12:02:00 PM [+] ::
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I'm back again... good times. Re-united with an old friend yesterday... seems good. Tonight I'll be up in WLR for some racing. Anywho... just got done with this... it's still gay... but...
http://www.angelfire.com/ar3/kwaziekeller/srt4.html
:: Jeremy 11:40:00 AM [+] ::
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It's been a long time.... my friend.. but we meet again. I have yet another crazy dream to talk about. Seems the other night... last night... I dreamt that my car got rear ended and it was totally screwed. I woke up and was like... OMG... did someone steal my car or something? Is this a sign... and there it sat in the garage, pristine as usual. It was freaked though. I'm scared to go anywhere super huge public parking lot area type stuff (aka wal-mart or a mall) After some of my other crazy dreams and the whole mysterious blood thing... I don't know if sometimes my dreams are trying to tell me something. Anywho... that is all... everything else is okay.
:: Jeremy 12:52:00 AM [+] ::
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OMG>.. been forever... so much to write so little time... I'll get with you later... toodlez!!
:: Jeremy 10:09:00 PM [+] ::
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Haven't done this in like forever.... but viva la broadband!! I have it now!! mu-hahaha... Yea me... Anywho.. I live in Arkansas now... umm yea... do you feel it? Anywho... It's cool... Well.. I think that is all I really have for now... take care everyone and Lexxi... I'll be talking to you soon...
:: Jeremy 9:51:00 PM [+] ::
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Hmmm... very boring and "long" 3 day weekend. Well.... I was online talking to a friend, Lindsey, and I told her that I have a fiancee. She didn't know, and apparently she held some emotional bond to me, so she got really mad. Okay, so I misinformed her by not letting her know I had a fiancee. She was the second person to get mad at me for it. The first was another friend named Julie. So now that I upset two women regarding this issue, I decided to tell everyone. So I just started telling all of my online friends. Sonia took it well, and was "happy" for me. Jackie took it good too. A few people even said... Who are you again... so yea... they didn't mind. Lexxi is just disappointed in me. I also know Lexxi is one of the few people who read my blog so just because I can... I'm sorry. For anyone else out there who might read this and doesn't know... you do now. Anywho... I tried to tell everyone I know, but some people are unavailable. I think my friend Kacie will take it bad too, but I'm not too worried about it. I figure it is my mistake and this is the best way to fix it. Come out, tell the truth and disappoint as many people as I can, all at once. Being dishonest is an interesting thing with me, and I guess I took the online relationship thing a little too losely, and adverse effects have been noted. Basically, I now have a giant dent in my character and since I'm so good at hating myself more than anyone else could ever hate me, it will be interesting to see how I change.

Other than that.... things are not too bad. I'm TMO'ing my stuff today... so no more computer, no more stereo, no more x-box, no more department store sized collection of clothing to chose from... Just the bare essentials. Hmmm... I'm down to like 10 days left in the Marines. It's just so darned interesting. Things are quite interesting... my life is entering a new state and I'm just struggling to "find" myself again. Adios, have a good one and TTYL. Once again, I'm sorry if I hurt any of you, and if any of you wish death, or undying hatred upon me, I am here for your punishment as well as my own, I say, do your worst.
:: Jeremy 7:27:00 PM [+] ::
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Wow... the new blogger.com stuff is... ummm... unique? Anywho... sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Hmmm.... I'm checking out of my unit... All in preparation to leave the island and go home. I have 6 working days left in Okinawa, and 9 working days left in the Corps. I only have 9 days and a wake-up until I am gone... and ... 14 days and a wake-up until I am out of the Marines. Woo-hoo... life was never meant to feel so good. Hmmm... good times, good people. I dunno... that is my newest catch phrase. Hmmm... I dunno... smile and nod. Hmmm...

Within the last week or so a lot of my friends have left. Now, I'm left with nobody over here. It's okay... because I'm leaving soon too... but it kind of sucks you know? Anywho, I'm really excited about getting out. I cannot complain at all. I made a new friend a week ago or so. She is pretty cool... she is in her "icky boy" mode, but she is pretty cool regardless of her lack of desire for relationships. She practically has no job what-so-ever, so I just go to her office and kick it with her sometimes... just to chit chat and chill. Hmmm... I dunno... she is almost out of the marines too. Anywho... whatever, right? She is one of the odd types of the women marines... she is one of the "non-whore" women... which is very cool. A lot of females in the marines are straight up sluts... since they don't take money for their actions... Anywho... that is besides the point. I'm doing good though... nothing too shabby. Life is "good" right now... at least as good as it can be. Well... I think I'm going to get going. You have a good one... smile and TTYL
:: Jeremy 5:25:00 PM [+] ::
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What a busy time... I've been getting hosed over and shafted and stuff but I'm out of here on the 12th of July and out of the MArines on the 17th... thank god... Anywho... I've been very irratable and upset... downright disgruntled latley. Anywho... I have high blood pressure... like really really high... like my highest so far is 146/100... The wost case was actually today... 136/102... Having such a high ambient blood pressure (systolic?... I think) is bad.... very bad... haha... Anywho... work is a pain in the arse... no matter what I do there is still 10 items in out help desk... grrr....It's such a pain... So yea... umm hmm... smile and nod... I want to go to the pool and go swimming but I have to wait until I am off of work... and I've got Midnight Club II sitting at home chilling, waiting, anxiously antisipating me to come home and play it some more... I dunno... I'm stuck... I'm in the last race in LA... and I'm stuck.... grrr.... double grr... haha Hmmm.... Yea smile and nod... Hmmm... well... yea... I dunno... that is about it for now... you know... so smile and nod and TTYL
:: Jeremy 8:25:00 PM [+] ::
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Hmmm.... yet another day... another dollar... Yea... my Company 1stSgt has placed my separations package in a non-recommended pile... so yea... I might not be getting out on time... but of course... if it does get denied I will request past and run it up to higher HQ... worst case... I will run it to the Commandant... grrr... I hate the stressors of the Marine Corps... hence my wanting to get out. Grrr.... Anyways, things are okay here... Last night I bought a 12 pack and decided to chill... sadly... it is a 12 pack of 40's... but yeah... a 12 pack none the less... Anywho... things are good, or as good as they can be. Well... I just wanted to send a short little note describing what is going on. Take care, have a good one... and TTYL SMILE!!
:: Jeremy 6:58:00 PM [+] ::
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It's been a decent day so far... no crazy crap really... I'm kind of worried about the ongoing investigations and my leaving the Marine Corps... Mainly the whole if they let me thing... but yea... anywho... Things are not too bad here... It has been raining all day and I have watch tonight so I will have all kinds of free time to talk to my peoples... so yea... look for me tomorrow morning you stateside freaks.. Yea.... whatever right... Smile and nod... peace out.
:: Jeremy 8:56:00 PM [+] ::
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Yes, hold back the excitement... Bad news.... there are 3 investigations pending with my old shop right now, so I might not really be leaving here on time. They may hold me since I am a whitness to some of the "wrong doing"... Just adding some drama to my life... they just cannot let me go peacefully. Anywho, I might be flying and separating with one of the other guys in my shop, especially if this stuff blows up any worse. Anywho, other than all of that, all is decent at best. I startd to get sick again last night, it is because I got a JEV booster.... JEV is Japanese Encephalitus... It's some disease that the mosiquotes carry or something.... well not all of them, but some of them... SO yea... whatever.... I see my possible flight dates as June 14, June 17, June 21... I'm not too worried about it, I just need to get my orders and my check out sheet finished and I will be happy. Hmm.. well I do not know, things are as good as they can be you know? So yea... I'm going to get going now... sorry I have been neglecting all of you.... my internet friends... but AIM is not working too well right now because the firewall guys blocked it again... well... sayonara!
:: Jeremy 5:33:00 PM [+] ::
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Sorry again.... I just found out I have 10 days until my "window" opens to fly out of here... interesting... I've got a lot to do now.... Anywho... things are good I guess. NOthing too exciting... For all you antidisestablishmentarianism lovers out there.... thinking it is the longest word in the English language.... Put this... pneumonoultramicrscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis in your pipe and smoke it. Although your reveered antidisestablishmentarianism has 28 letters... mine clocks in at 45, so move on out of the way... Oh and by the way... it is a lung illness that is caused by the inhalation of microscopic silica particles... ummm hmmm... Webster never had it so good... haha Other than that... things are good I guess... nothing too exciting really. Work is work, and I'm working hard as I can to get out of here. I have a final physical on June 12th, the first day of my flight window. Ummm hmmm.... intersting interesting. I dunno... I'm working on saving up some mad cash for my "retirement" haha... The end is near and never tasted so good... haha Well... adios amigos... and stay away from 45 letter words.... they cannot fit on a Scrabble board.
:: Jeremy 9:25:00 PM [+] ::
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Well time keeps on ticking.... TAPS/TAMPS is over... one less hurdle to get out of the Marines. It was pretty boring to say the most. Very much like career development classes I took in high school... with added features... benefits and stuff I rate post Marine Corps. Just a little over 2 weeks and I will be off of this island... can you feel the excitment. I have a ton of stuff to do so yea... it will be interesting. I dunno.... Life has been pretty good, but nothing too exciting. To all of my friends, I apologize for not communicating as much and I will in the future. Anwho.... I'm on watch again and I'm very bored and I just want to go to sleep... so yea... I'll talk to you later, have a good one and SMILE... Jermsy loves you...
:: Jeremy 3:01:00 AM [+] ::
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Ahhh... I have not posted in forever or so it seems... I'm no longer sick... which is cool... you know? I'm doing pretty good though. I worked Wednesday this week... that was the only day. Tuesday I went snorkeling with a few freinds... and Thursay/Friday I was at a party with some friends.. Other than that... I had Monday and Thursday off from watch on those nights... and well... That would be all... Hmmm... My friend Mase left this weekend so that was the reason for all of the partying. Things are good though... a little over a month before I am out and I've still got a ton of stuff to do. I should get it all done without any problems... so yea... you know? Looks like I'll be home around the first week of July... yea me!!! Hmmm.... It was a wild week... made a good friend a really good friend... by spending a lot of time together and getting to know each other as much as possible... so yea... things are not too bad... it seems whenever someone leaves I find someone to replace that person almost instantaneously... for instance... Mase's replacement has been our friend for a few months now, but now they are taking up the role Mase once had... so it is cool. Yuppers... That's about it really... I wish there were more but I've just been working a little and playing really hard the rest of the time. Well... I dunno... I'm getting some kind of an award this week or next. I think it is a Naval Acheivement medal... but it is probably some silly letter of appreciation for something I did a long time ago. I teach kids and do a lot of community service so there really is telling what it is. Well... I dunno... I'm very anxious about getting out of the Marines.... so that is about all that is driving me right now... my work efforts are all for me right now... Smile, have a good one and sorry for disappearing on everyone....
:: Jeremy 11:40:00 AM [+] ::
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Well the day has drug on and nothing exciting has occured at all... Hmmm... yea... hopefully I will get to go home eventually... haha Hmmm... well I dunno... I'm still kind of sick, and that still makes me grumpy... my coughs hurt really bad... like worse than it ever has with bronchitus but not nearly as bad as coughing up blood... Anywho.... nothing too exciting really... you know? Hmmm... I dunno... smile and nod... smile and nod. Hmmm... interesting conversations .... Been talking about tuning cars and my latest love... compound induction.... ahhh... it is a great idea... but so so hard to acheive.... Anywho... yea.... nothing too exciting... I'm just online at work downloading car videos... woo hoo... haha Well.. hasta manana... AhHHH... I forgotted... haha... Bad Boy Bill has become my favorite DJ.... well.... maybe not.. but he is very very close.... indeed... His song "Shake that ass and bounce those tits"... whew... mad bass lines above a very subjective vocal entity. Ummmm... very nice... haha Well... I dunno... smile and nod.... Madonna's newest "American Life" is pretty cool too.... but yea.... buh-byes!!
:: Jeremy 11:19:00 PM [+] ::
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I dunno... I haven't posted in a while... I guess that is because there hasn't been much of anything at all going on in my life. The latest and greatest... I'm sick... that sucks... Of all the things that can "drag me down" getting sick is up there with the best of the worst. I dunno... being sick takes all of the fun out of my life. I just want to sit around and sleep... So yea... this last weekend... nothing but sleep... I didn't get online to try and talk to friends because I'm sick... and that make me kind of grumpy. Anywho... other than being sick... nothing too exciting. I've been sort of working. It's Tuesday... so far I have worked one whole day this week.. far from last week's off every day stuff... so yea... I'm not too happy about that either. Hmmm... nothing too exciting really... I wish I had some good stories to tell and some stuff to pass on... but I don't. Well with all of that said... I hope I get better soon so I will be overflowing with happiness again... and well... if you see me online go ahead and talk to me... but remember I might be more irritable... or something... since I am kind of sick.... well take care... have a good one... and ttyl.
:: Jeremy 5:33:00 PM [+] ::
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Hmmm... well the time has been flying by... want a "taste of my work week?" Well check it out.... I had Monday off for Cinco de Mayo, then I had Tuesday off because I came in and worked on Monday when someone needed assistance. Hmmm... Wednesday... I had a nice loooonnnngggg day.... I had watch from 1800-0200 after that... and of course... I got Thursday off... then for today.... Friday... I guess you could say I "worked"... I went in and got sent home at like 10am, and came back at like 1500. Then of course.... I have to work 18-0200 again... but hey... can I really complain... I really only worked like one whole 0800-1630 day.... haha Yuppers... Like several days of work and yet I only really worked a few hours... and yea... my time is kind of shotty... seeing as my weekend is kind of cut short.... but hey.... it beats having it Saturday night. Hmmm... I'm on some ancient laptop... it is like slow motion. You see trailer as you type... Hmmm... nothing else is exciting really.

Ahhhh... the "new prospect"... well she it sotally not interested... No I did not put any moves on her... but she is shocked that I am seeking a "really good friend" and whatnot... also... I knew she was engaged... but well... I dunno... She is happy in that relationship apparently. I dunno... no biggie... we can remain friends... you know? Hmmm... nothing too exciting really. One of my "co-workers" is nappy nappy time right now... I think it is kind of funny.... hmmm.... they're killing the power here later tonight... Which kind of sucks... because not only will I be on watch, but I will be powerless... ummm hmmm.... I dunno... smile and nod... Nothing too exciting... Hmmm... yea... smile and nod... I'll be happy when I get to go home later ... That'll be cool as freak... riiiggghhttt... 2am... I'm going to go home and drink myself to sleep.... hopefully Konnect (ISP)_is still functional and my kazaa downloads will be finished... at least some of them will... I hope.... Hmmm... well I dunno... I need broadband... Really bad too... Hmmm.. well I dunno... I'm going to get going.... peace out TTYl have a good one buh-byes!!
:: Jeremy 2:28:00 AM [+] ::
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Hmmm... another exciting weekend... I dunno... I quasi have a new "prospect".... She is an acquaintance of mine who is becoming a good friend. Anywho... I dunno... whatever right? Hmmmm.... da da da..... Hmmm.... I dunno... smile and nod. Nothing too exciting really.. I had a good night last night. It was Sunday night and we all know what Jeremy does on Sunday nights. Well the JP's broke it up early.... like 11pm... so we went to a different spot... anywho... it was cool... just chilling there.... and we ran into one of our friends. He was having car problems so we helped him out. The JP's also showed up there .... but his Japanese wife took good care of us and kept us out of trouble. Need I mention that she is the hottest japanese girl I've ever seen... granted certain "parts" of her are fake... but wow..... she is amazing. She speaks good English too. Of course she didn't understand when my friend told her I was a clown. See... I have this problem... I cannot sit still... and well... the place we were at has this big open park area with really soft grass.... It is the best grass I've ever seen... Beats out golf courses... this grass is beuatiful... and well... my and my I cannot sit still butt started doing backflips, back hand springs, front hand springs... cartwheels, and round-offs and what not... Yea... I was kind of showing off for the cutie... but so what... I wanted to know if I still could do them too.... It was fun... I can still do everything I used to... except string together long groups of back hand springs... After 3 I was so dizzy and had a massive headache... so I decided that I need to start doing them more so I can get good and string 20-30 of them together like I used to. Hmmm...

Other than Sunday my weekend was okay... I didn't do much of anything... Just kind of sat around and relaxed. I cannot complain at all though... that is what weekends are for right? One of the guys from my normal shop pulled a no-brainer over the weekend... luckily we could accomidate. He got back from being TAD to the states, and never called anyone to pick him up until he was here... at like 10pm on a Friday night... so yea... needless to say he is lucky someone I know with a car was home to pick him up at the airport. Hmmm... I've been surfing around on hot or not a lot latley... I guess I'm looking for new friends.... woo hoo... HMmm... One of my pics got an incredibly low rating of like 5... so I was kind of upset by that... Eventually I'll actually post a pic of me I like out there and see how that goes... I've noticed that being in uniform adds at least 1 whole point to your score... haha Funny isn't it? Well... that is about it... so I'm going to get going... you all take care, have a good one ... and TTYL...
:: Jeremy 8:34:00 PM [+] ::
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Ahhh... the life and times of Jeremy Keller... hmmmm.... what has happened latley.... hmmm... They have made like 4 watch schedules in the last week or so, for the next month.... every single one is more complex and more complicated that the previous one. The version prior to the latest and greatest had me on watch every other day... but it has gone wayward and to the wind. Hmmmm... yesterday I chilled with one of my friends all afternoon while I was on duty recovery. It was an okay time... I drank like... 12 beers and wound up sipping on some wine before I went to bed... I cannot complain at all... I crashed at like 9pm and slept till 1am... then I woke up all of a sudden and decided to drink some water..... hmmmm... I had PT at like... 5am... we ran out to a store that is a good 3 miles away... it was a loooonnnngggg run... I was dogging it... and being very tired... Life goes on right? Hmmm... what else... IT'S FRIDAY!!! I might be getting some time off later... like... the rest of the day... then I have another watch at like midnight... .it'd one of the better watches... I get to see my drunken comrades coming home from the e-club on base... and I get to point and laugh... although they should be the ones laughing... since I'm "working".... hmmm... well... I dunno... smile and nod... yuppers... yuppers.....Wow... I'm doing okay... anywho... that is all in my life right now... besides the abnormal... I still do not know where that blood came from.... Also... I was showering trying to think of a nickname for one of my friends.... and some daunting image from the past popped into my head... I freaked moderatly... but it was okay... and now... I cannot remember what startled me so in the shower.... yea... so I may be crazy after all... haha... well... I'll talk to you later.... farewell my friends, associates, and co-workers... I gib you bood evening....
:: Jeremy 9:57:00 PM [+] ::
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Well my "wonderful" night of watch draws to a close.... and yet... nothing too unusual to report.... the crazy dreams continue.... but... I cannot remember it now.... this one was not the atypical sexual dream that I have been having.... it was old school.... serial killer/mass murderer dream. Anywho... over the night-time hours I had to move a mailbox that was about 60 Mb over a very slow connection... I started at around 10pm... and it is still... not finished... such a pain.... such a pain.... Hmmmm.... well... I dunno... Soon, I will be in my room, on my computer, and able to shower/shave/brush my teeth... as the worst thing about long duties is the hygiene.... Granted I'm no smelly bum right now.... at leastI think I'm not... due to climate controlled environments.... but... you just feel dirty.... and imagine... it was only a little over 24 hours... The longest I have gone without a real shower is around 38 days.... that is a real pain in the bum... but hey... I'm a marine, and I was in the field... There are ways to clean yourself up without a full-fledged shower... but come on... we all know nothing compares to a nice long shower. (Except maybe a nice long shower with someone to assist you in those "hard to reach places", as you assist them with the same) Well... I do not know... I must continue on... get ready to go home and stuff... so I'll talk to you later... peace oiut... SMILE!!
:: Jeremy 4:13:00 PM [+] ::
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Update on personal injuries... my leg is still healing quite well.... I'd say another 2 weeks and it'll just be a pathetic story and a scar.... as for the Sunburn form last weekend... still peeling.. a wee little bit.... and as for the PCS flare-ups.... none latley (Post Concussion Syndrome).

Hmmm... I just realized that I am at least 12 e-mails behind... meaning... 12 of my dearest friends have written me to say hello and I have yet to write back... I am falling behind.... grrr... I must work harder to be a better friend... I will never rule the world at this rate.... PS... SMILE!!!!!
:: Jeremy 1:59:00 AM [+] ::
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Holy geezch.... I have not posted in SO SO LOOOONNNNGGG.... haha So what's up? My life has been very very bland as of late. Nothing worth noting at all. I mean... days come and days go... woo hoo... big freaking deal right? Hmmm... well... I dunno... the JP's have effictively stopped the races, so they are non existent. So now I practically have nothing to at all... right whatever... haha... some freaky deaky things have been going on... Check this out... The other day... like... Tuesday morning... I wake up from my sleep in the morning... and I go to the bathroom to get ready... and when I look in the mirror... getting that first look since I woke up... I notice some blood on my lip.... At first.. just my lower lip, then on further investigation my upper lip too... So I lick the dried up blood off... and inspect my lips for tears or anything... nothing.. I find not a single mark anywhere around my mouth .... anywhere... so where did this blood come from.. I do not know... I think that is pretty freaky. I've never woken up with blood anywhere and not knowing what it was from... kind of strange... I was totally locked in my room... nobody disturbed my sleep... so all I can think is it came from my own body... but yea.... I'm spooked... I've never had issues with sleep walking or anything... but it is a possibility that cannot be ruled out.... did I sleep walk and act out my vampiric fantacies? I dunno... It cannot be ruled out... haha

Hmmm... other than that.... nothing too creepy. I've just been playing video games, relaxing and such ... so more or less... same old same old. Hmmm... I pulled another double duty today... I had watch from 0600-1200, and then tonight I have J6 watch overnight... so I will get off of work at like 8am tomorrow and then it will be sleepy bye time and whatnot as I spend all day Thursday trying to catch up. Whatever right? Hmmmm... we got some of our watch standers back so the load will be lesser in the upcoming weeks.... Whatever right? Hmmm... I dunno... I feel bad for being all like anti-internet... but ... I haven't really had time... which suck major bung... since TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE. Well... take care, have a good one... SMILE and buh-byes!! haha
:: Jeremy 1:50:00 AM [+] ::
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